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Entries for June, 2004

June 1st, 2004

hmm

Posted by hazuki at 04:23 AM on June 1, 2004.

haay it's been 4 days since he visited me here n yeah ang saya dami me na22nan sa kanya n abt. sa RO grabe wa ako ma say dami nyang alam hahaha (certified adik ka talaga hon), n kaka2wa he's quite interested in Gunbound todo nood sya noong naglaro sila Jjay n tatay n akala nga nya galit ako kc i was watching alone ng "Kill Bill vol.2" haha flattered ako for some reason..... e1 ko ba babaw ko talaga pero iba ei i can't explained pero basta na touch ako noong he ask me if i'm mad? .... then on that same night kwen2han 2 d' max kami abt past n our EX's haha kaka2wa ang mga past nya n abt sa stud nya, sa mga naging work nya, kinda cute sya magkwen2 nadedemonyo nga akong picturan sya while nagkukuwen2 sya eh hehehe i'm evil pero syempre ndi ko ginawa baka magalit pa sa kin lolz, ang drama nang life nya but somehow nakaka challenge din n mas lalo ko 2loy syang minahal n i really swear to GOD n nding ndi ko iiwan ang taong 2 as long as he needs me i'll be right beside here 2 support all his decision n "hon" no matter what u do d2 lng ako hon karamay mo sa lahat ng bagay maybe mahirap paniwalaan pero i'll do my best to prove it to u n d2 lng ako lagi sa likod mo ndi lng dahil bf kita kc 4 me ur my friend, my brother, my barkada, my tropa n most of all ur d' man i love the most kya hon if u need me i'm just here 4 u, pls don't hesitate to come to me n i'll help u d' best i can ndi ko sinasabi 2 just 2 feel u better i say this coz i2 ang nararamdaman ko para sa u n i believe na believing n trusting each other is d' best thing para mag tagal ang isang relationship that's y i believe n trust u hon d2 lng me lagi if u need some one to hang on n ms u badly

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June 6th, 2004

y?

Posted by hazuki at 07:24 AM on June 6, 2004.

what with in the title?? frankly speaking even me don't know why? it's looks everything gotten complicated e1 bakit but nakakapagod na talaga ang buhay ko i did my best n yet kulang pa pala yun, i did everything n yet wala pa pala yun how awful of me naman pala i try my best pero wala pala yun, ganun lng pala tingin nya nun, sana lng dineretsa n lng nya para malinaw d ba? ndi yung kung saan saan pa nya dinadaan.....................sry peeps kinda wala lng ako sa sarili ko sige peeps bye muna !! blangko utak ko

tissue?

June 13th, 2004

Mr. Clay?

Posted by hazuki at 11:14 AM on June 13, 2004.

Mr. Clay
by Bamboozlers

Red sun dawn
Guns are drawn
Skull and bones
Beast of war
Father help me stop this
Rush of blood to the head
Look at you I see red
Start this game
I'll end it

By this hate that you help the world create
I've been sent
Now repent
I'm the war that comes to you
I'm the plague that follows through

I've been told
You've been warned
To stop the hatred you have spawned
The qualms you have are stupid
By this movement manifest
Lord now put you to the test
Yet you fail
Now the blind that follow you
Will burn in hell with you

All by myself
I know that I stand here alone
All your lies they feed
I'm stronger now
Stronger now than I was before
There's no way you can
Hurt me
Move me
Stop me

Talk too much mutherfucker hush
You had your chance to change things
Move in the direction of right
Choose to set the bad
But then you had to pick a fight
So what's daddy done for you lately?
Bought you the throne
Like stealing candy from a baby
Line your pockets with mucho dinero
Paid in full with the blood of the people

So now you got the fires rockin
Blood and hate
Then you got the people talking
Legacy
You will never be forgotten
Your place in history
A black mark in time
A black mark in time

All by myself
I know that I stand here alone
All your lies they feed
I'm stronger now
Stronger now than I was before
There's no way you can
Hurt me
Move me
Stop me

Peace and flowers
Will kill the superpower
The fall of Rome is near
Can't you hear
It's been written, it's been said
The signs are here
The revelations I have read
The signs are here
Those days are over
Walk away from the line
For now is the time

All by myself
I know that I stand here alone
All your lies they feed
I'm stronger now
Stronger now than I was before
There's no way you can
Hurt me
Move me
Stop me

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hmm nothing much 2 say n this time i'm all alone again carrying all d' burden in my life but wala akong sinisisisi sa mga nangyari but d' pain remain, a pain n maiwan sa utak n puso ko pero wala akong galit sa taong yun in fact i salute him for being honest, now i'm not feeling well coz of what happen last nite buti n lng andyan c Ian our neighborhood friend of mine he accompany me thru out d' nite n somehow medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam ko but this morning i really feel terrible my whole body was shaking, my head is numb n it's hurt so much, n when i hold a glass of water my hands was shaking it was just like i don't have bones to carry my whole body n i can't help to be sad again coz of what happen between d' 2 of us kaso ano magagawa ko ndi naman ako madamot so i have to let him free maski ang sakit sakit sa kin basta remember this if need somebody who can lean on d2 lng ako n alam mo naman where u can contact me d ba? promise ko sa u yun n thx for d' song even though di ko pa alam ang melody nya n di ko gets y did u give this song to me sana maging happy ka sa napili mong landas...........


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June 14th, 2004

Goodbye 2 u :(

Posted by hazuki at 05:21 AM on June 14, 2004.

Goodbye To You
by Michelle

Of all the things I believed in
I just wanna get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes
And you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

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la lang is just that as the song goes by "the one thing that i tried to hold on to" ei wala na pala akong dapat pang hawakan pa bad 4 me but good 4 d' @#$$&*@@ sana maging happy ka n wishing u all d' best u n @#@*@&#%#?@ sana ....... never mind akin n lng yun thx 4 everything !!

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June 16th, 2004

BAKIT NGA BA?

Posted by hazuki at 06:18 PM on June 16, 2004.

bakit nga ba tau nagmamahal...????

why do we love ba?
so we can have somebody 2 talk 2?
some1 who can be there pag gusto natin gumala?
a person na pwedeng manlibre satin?
taong magbibitbit ng gamit mo?

ALALAY 4 short!

eh pano kung d ka nya mahal?
would u still love him/her?
would u still con't 2 care 4 that person?

bkit nman hinde?

u didnt love that person pra magkaroon ka ng alalay, magkaroon ka ng instant meal dhil libre, taong ga2wa ng assignments mo or projects, or taong mahi2la mo if u want 2 go out... if thats what u think abt love well sorry ang BABAW mo! loving a person doesn't need 2 have a criteria na dpat maganda o guwapo, dpat mabait or understanding, kasi once u fall inlove u take the risk of accepting dat person khit maingay sya matulog, yung hilik ng hilik khit mtakaw sya o sobrang fat na ndi kyo kasya pag puno ang jeep! khit sobrang moody nya na kulng nalng ay sapakin mo sa inis! yung sobrng selosa/seloso na pti barkada pinagse2losan.. badtrip diba? N yung napaka-arte OA kung baga! o kahit ano png things that would turn you off... hirap tlaga magmahal trying 2 be PERFECT kase gus2 mong magtgal pro ndi yun ang sagot sa lhat... ACCEPTING d real person fully kc if u said na mhal mo sya u dont need 2 find answers kung bkit mo sya mhal... kc lhat ng tao ngba2go but if u accept that person magbgo man sya in d middle of ur relationship ndi ka masa2ktan kc u know that darating din yun.. tska tnggap mo sya ng buo...mahirap gwin pro msarap subukan dhil wla ng sa2ya pa if u let 1 person feel na MAHAL NA MAHAL mo sya w/o asking 4 anything
return... then u can say wow un pla ang LOVE!

Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you've decided 2 see beyond d imperfections.... ü

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Do u know I exist, just 2 promise u this, Endlessly 2 b true 2 u, N if u answer my prayer, I cross my heart n I'd swear Endlessly 2 be true 2 u, N if u'd only see How beautiful u n I would be, endlessly,Endlessly [B4-4]

Naka2tawa tlaga ang love. Isa siyang npakalaking oxymoron. Lahat ng pwede mong msabi sa kanya, bliktarin mo at 22o pa rin.

Ang labo diba? Pero ang linaw. Msaya mgmahal. Mlungkot mgmahal. Di mo naiintindihan pro naiintindihan mo. Wlang rason. Mraming rason. D mo na kya, pero kya mo pa rin. Msakit mgmahal. Pro okey lng. Leche, ano ba talaga?!

May kaibigan ako, sabi niya dati "Love is only for stupid ." Nka2tawa kc laude ang standing niya, pro dumating ang pnahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang. At ayun, tanga na siya ngayon. Lhat kc ng nha2wakan ng love nagi2ng oxymoron din. O kya pminsan, nagi2ng moron lng. ndi lng kc bsta baliktaran ang pag-ibig. Lhat ng bagay nba2ligtad din niya. Lhat ng mla2kas na tao, humihina. Ang mya2bang, ngpa2kumbaba. Ang mga wlang pakialam, ngi2ng Mother Teresa. Ang mga henyo, nauubusan ng sgot. Ang mlu2ngkot, sumasaya.

Nka2tawa tlaga. Lalo na kpag dumadating siya sa mga taong ayw na tlaga mgmahal. Npansin ko nga eh. Prang kung gus2 mo lang ma-in-love ulit, sabihin mo lng ang magic words na "Ayoko na mainlove!" biglng WACHA! Ayan na sya. Nang-aasar. Mgpa2asar ka nman.

D ba nka2tawa rin na pgdating sa problema ng ibang tao, ang gling gling mo? Pero 'pag problema mo na yung pinag-uusapan prang nwa2lan ng saysay lhat ng ipinayo mo dun sa namomroblemang tao? Naiisip mng wla nmng mli dun sa mga sinabi mo. Pro bkit prang wla ring tma?

Bali-baliktad din ang nsa2bi ng mga taong tinamaan ng madugong pana ng pag-ibig. "Ngayon ko lang nalaman ganito pala."

Sabi ko na eh!" "Ang sarap mabuhay"

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Kyo sbi kyo ng sbi na mhal nio ang isng tao.. Sure ba kyo dun?? Hmmm kung sure nga kyo eh di mganda! Ndala na ko diyan sa pgma2hal na yan.. prang pngtanga lng ata yan eh… pano ktangahan.. mgpkatanga sa isang taong tnga pra mhalin mo! Gets mo ba?! Minsan gnun feeling ko eh pero anoh mgagawa ko? Mhal ko… mhal ko… mhal ko.. o tma na nba2liw na ko eh… gusto ko lng actually mglabas ng nra2mdaman ko.. ung tipong msabi ko nman ung feelings ko khit na sa gani2 lng.. at least mdaming mka2relate d ba? Pno kc bkit ba ksi minsan ndi ntin mpigilang mhalin ang isang tao? Puwede bng piliin ung taong ma2halin mo? Bkit ba ksi nfofall pa tyo sa isang taong ndi nmn tau pwedeng mhalin? At ang listahan
ng mga tanong ko eh hindi na mta2pos… pro prang un na rin un..tnong ako ng tnong bkit ba kasi ganun? Ngma2hal ka ba pra msaktan??Ndi ba dpat pag ngmahal ka msaya ka? Bkit ba kc kailangan png may BAD SIDE? Bkit ba kailangang umiyak ka pa? Un ba ang gusto nila? Un ba un?? Sa2bihan ako ng “Love comes with pain!” ay walang ya sino pa mgma2hal niyan kung plaging ganun? Iiyak ka na lng plagi gnun ba un? Ay ang hirap ata nun… sa2bihan ako ng “gnyan tlaga ang love… kailangan mong umiyak.” Pro after that anoh? Iiyak ka ulit? Ku2ha ka na ng balde? Hay naku! E1 ko ba
bkit ba kc nagma2hal pa tayo?! Sbi ko na eh… MALI yng pagma2hal na yan.. MALI yang sinasabi ng mga tao… MALI…… maling mali tlaga… until… nakila2 ko siya… waaaaaaaaaa UMIYAK NA NMN AKO… akala ko ba love na?! Pro alam niyo dhil sa knya nkita ko na.. naintindihan na.. kung ano ba tlaga ung LOVE na un… naintindihan ko na kung bkit kailangang umiyak kung bkit kailangang may skit… kc kung lgi na lng tyo magi2ng msaya wla ng saysay ung pagma2hal ntin…narealize ko na hindi lhat ng gusto… dpat… at hindi lhat ng gusto… naku2ha… pro un nga ung mganda dun eh na222 ka… khit na
ilng blde na ng luha meron ka.. naku2ha mo png ngumiti dhil andiyan sya.. khit ndi sa pormang gus2 mo msaya ka ng mlaman na msaya
sya.. ndi ba ganun nman tlaga ung pgma2hal? ndi ang srili mong kasiyahan ang iniisip mo.. ang importante msaya siya… khit
na ndi sa piling mo… khit na hindi dhil sayo… bsta MASAYA SIYA… naintindihan ko na kung bkit ndi lhat ng bgay nku2ha… anoh tyo
spoiled? Hehe minsan dpat pgkaitan ka din ng grasya noh… msyado ng mbait si Lord niyan… pro i2 lng mga tsong… sa pgma2hal.. expect the unexpected… wag kyo msyadong mgisip… hyaan niong mismong
pgma2hal nga ang mgdugtong sa inyo sa pinakamagandang praan… kung hnggang kaibigan lng tnggapin niyo… ksama yan pag ngmahal ka ung skit… ung luha… ksi pag gnun msa2bi mo na sa buong mundo…

ngmahal ako…



ng sobra…




ng
totoo…


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wahh ang haba nya but i really appreciated thx van alam ko naman para sa kin 2 ei n grabe naka realte agad me n yeah tama ang mga sinabi mo 22o lahat yan
Currently feeling: sleepy n lonely

tissue?

June 19th, 2004

untitled :

Posted by hazuki at 06:01 PM on June 19, 2004.

The Way You Look At Me
by Christian Bautista

INTRO
No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

CHORUS
'Cause there's domethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You made me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

If i could freeze some moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stand still
'Cause baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

(Repeat CHORUS)

BRIDGE
I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens everytime

(Repeat CHORUS)

CODA
The way you look at me

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la akong maisip na title kasi till now blangko utak ko b'coz of what happened to me but i just want to share this song to him coz i2 yung bagay n bagay sa kanya coz iba talaga ang feelings ko everytime we were 2gether but .......=(yeah, yeah i know k martiran n 2 but ......don't worry guys accepted ko n kaso ........there still 1 thing n ......nvrmind is just that wala lng ako sa sarili ko now pasensya n =( kung alam lng nya ......kaso malaman man nya la na rin pala masakit but trying to move on but there's something left in my heart na yung heart ko lng ang makakasagot nun kung ano man yun coz even my mind don't know what's so special abt him kaya ako nag ka gani2 .......... nothing to say so bye
Currently feeling: crazy on my own risk

tissue?

June 27th, 2004

errr

Posted by hazuki at 06:05 PM on June 27, 2004.

Eternal Snow

I fell in love with u … just how long has it been since then?
My feelings have only been getting stronger.
It’s like snowflakes drifting… gently…
…Continuing to pile up higher and higher.

*Hold me tight … if this is how it feels …
The feeling of falling in love with someone…
I never wanted to know that feeling.

I love you… I can’t stop my tears from falling…
In that case, then you…
… Should never have come into my life.
If the snow keeps on falling forever…
… Will it cover up my feelings for you?

(Repeat *)

I love you… it’s filling up my heart…
I want to shout to the winter sky…
I want to meet you right now.
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*People are organisms that realize value only once they’ve lost something valuable from there lives, and when they return to the beginning … they forget how valuable it was again.
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this song is came from anime titled "Fullmoon wo Sagashite" for those who have watch that's lucky 4 u coz u can relate to what i mean here I've love a man but unfortunately ndi pala dapat coz of some reason n now he's trying to win me back but i'm still confuse if i would still accept him inspite of everything..... if u gonna ask do i still love this person?... of course i do but their is already doubt in my heart if this time do he really love me? or it is just .....nvrmind i don't know what should i do my heart telling me to accpet him again coz i really do love him so much but my mind said no but behind my mind saying accept him, to prove if this time he's already honest w/ d' feeling he have for u, but still untill now confuse ako sa na raramdaman ko sa kanya or maybe ndi pa kc kami tapos mag usap abt this matter i do hope n mag ka usap n kami ng maayos para ma ayos ko na din utak ko bahala na ..............

n abt naman sa quotes i posted yan din ang kinatatakutan ko baka noong nawala ako sa kanya tsaka na nya naisip yun but once na baka mag kaigi ulit wala n naman akong silbi sa kanya kung may new chance man sana ndi ako ma balewala
Currently feeling: confused

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